beautiful . solitude

Been reading up on stippling brushes all day, and apparently the best one so far is the MAC 187. 

I'm looking into getting one altho there is no way that I'd fork out the money for a MAC.  According to makeupalley, the next best thing would be the ULTA highlighter brush.  The price is also kinda steep for someone in deep shit like me (even with that $5 off coupon).  So what is a girl to do at a time like this!?

Just kidding!  Better to just stick with my 36 for $1 cosmetic sponge.  There's no point for a girl to look air-brushed when she's in deep shit (and deep shit as of now = almost no job super low income no aspirations AND fat). 

I saw a few pics of my thin former self.  Oh how I wish to look that way again, even tho that would mean going back to teetering between aneorexic and bulemic.  Not cool.  And I wonder if I spelled those words correctly.